im blown away hehe……

hehe, im reading this book now, me and my ate watched a movie yesterday while she was being stucked dun sa lane sa chowking hehehe i told her sa national bookstore n kmi mgkita hehe then i saw this book. i always loved nicholas sparks eversince i read a walk to remember, he writes very well, the plot of his stories blown me away most of the time. he reminds me of judith mcnaught.

Nights in Rodanthe is love story of two lonely people, drawn to each other despite of their hurtful past. this gave me a realization that no matter what is your age when you fall in love nothing can stop that. and one thing more, u dnt fall in love once. i was planning to finish this book later tonight hehe..im excited and very into the story. some parts made me teary-eyed. 

finally…i finished the book last nyt.uhm its sad hehe i qoute this from a friend “everytime i go to bed i die “

the book was beautiful. i cried from argh i dont even remember which page but i was crying til the end. im wondering why someone has to go.. to a place where the other one can’t come. both the characters have only given a little chance to be together and after that it was gone, the things they planned, the future they think of, the moments to come to be cherished. everything.

its very sad that he has to go on the time that they were really inlove.

the story moved me. their relationship was sudden but i think its possible to fall for someone in a very short time. it was fate who determined it was gonna end.tragic but it was a learning experience.

love it guys really..hehe

the song reminded me of you..

its 1 am in the morning (yawn) im very sleepy already, just finished fixing my new fs account.spending 2hours looking for friends to add up. my eyes were teary, my back aches hehe i can never stand being a call center agent haha thats what i realized.i cant play any music i might get caught and surely mom will move this pc back on the living room hehe..its a good thing it was here in my room so i can write anytime. i put the earphones of my ipod and listen to my mushy songs, the first song surprisingly left me motionless.i felt like i stopped breathing for a while. that song made me want to burst into tears. im very confused now.i dont even know where i am heading.but im sure im going the right way, its just that its still unclear. im lost.

IM MESSED UP:(

i stopped reading his blogs. when?i didnt know. i admire him, admire his music, his entries. he remebered me as one of his acquintances. nothing more to that. im keeping that in mind. i didnt went overboard. i know i reached my limit. i know i need to stop.

i was blessed i met him spend few months with him.thankful he got to sing for me those memories  are enough for me to get through this..

like ive said with my previous post.sometimes there will never be a second chance. 

for bujoy..

wheeew…

so tired hehe.just finished having lunch and im crazy talking to bujoy about this blogsite haha im asking her how can i post my fs image here sbi nia ” kailangan pa ng image host yn”

huwwwaaat was that?!heheh bujoy has always been the computer addict in the group hehe. all i know is to write.write my sentiments, my anger, my happy nonsense thoughts hehe..so i was like sa knya knia “hala haha lalo mu nmn aqo pinhirapan bujoy”hehe

i miss being with her ngulat nga kmi when we knew that she was practically inlove with her pc games nyahaha kidding..eto pa nkakatawa i asked her..”bujoy bkit an profile ko itim lang?! ” kc i thought ung knia colorful hahaha sbi nmn nya “sakin din itim ^_^” hahaha good good pareho lang kmi..kausap ko nga xia sa ym now..itz been a while since we last bonded hahaha last ata ngkita kmi sinugod nmin sa haus nila haha.sbi nia sa phone “ngaun n!ngaun nb?hala now n?!” aun aun nghisterical ata hehe

hahaha im happy now, i saw sum msg coming from my yahoo.mail that sum of my dearly love friends has confirmed my add requests on their fs account haha 5 friends now..200 more to go haha..

anyways, last last nyt i opened my heart hahaha panget ng phrase naun.i shared my heart nlng kay bujoy haha shared?!bsta gnun n nga un. i told her some of my secrets haha of my bein a hopeful stalker wahaha! ntatawa qo.joke lang. aun i miss sharing those kind of stories with her kc with all of my friends she was the one na an tinis ng boses haha n parang laging ngugulat si fey nmn an mhinhin brutal ang effect hehe..so when i was telling her my very interesting story khit ym lang ang mga reactions nya iba tlga hehe..

we, sa group bujoy we are happy na tayo tayo pa rin..all these years its been us.haha lang bago.

you know how much i cherished u db.

we are here for you.always..hehe thanks for the very new term image handler keep that in mind..haha.

wishful thinking…

  ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ dnt let go…

its 11:30 pm now, i was talking to my friend bujoy when we got into a very light topic hehe.its him. for those who read this entry.i hope you learn something from it.

“hold on to him if he treats you so well, loved you unconditionally, accepted you for who you really are.dont ever let him go.if you did..believe me, he wont come back, no matter how much you wanted to be with him, to hear all his i love you’s, to feel his sweet gestures once more, sad truth, it ended on very minute u let him go…Sometimes we take for granted a person, and it was too late for you to realized that its really him..all this time it was still him. There are times when you are stucked in a certain momet reminiscing the things that you had before like having a good laugh together or pouring ur heart out onto his shoulder. Wishig that it wasnt just yesterday.badly hoping it was still happening at this very moment. then after a while you will suddenly wake up from a long dream and has to face reality that he is really gone, that he is in the loving arms of somebody else. that he is very happy now, contented. your heart screaming in pain knwing he’s kissing someone else, saying i love you to her and not you. making her feel loved like the way he made you feel before. its hard when u know she’s the reason why he smiles everyday. why he is so inspired, why his eyes glow with so much love. the same reason why he plans his future with her. then you would see their picture together, having fun with each other’s company. you can see how much they are inlove.  while you, fighting all your tears every night and wishing it was still you and not her. regretting why u let him go. choosing a wrong person over him. evry night it was a routine that you wud slip with tears flowing down on your cheeks. and waking up again hoping ur okey, praying ur really be okey.u just have to digest everything you hear, you read and see. you just have to accept that he’s not yours anymore that he found somebody who treated him better than u did. and the only thing that is left for you to do is  to be happy for him, wish them goodluck and pray for their continous happiness.it was hard but it was the right thing to do. as for you, you just have to go on.move your feet forward. and beleive that somewhere there is really someone meant for you.and remember, most of the time there are no second chances..”