Lamig ng Panahon
September 27, 2010Sobraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Kakairita!Kakapanghina! Tapos sasabayan ng sama ng pakiramdam. Ako na ako na ang may sakit ako na. Makakaabsent ka ba sa work isang malaking HINDE. Kahapon biglaan ang paglamig ng panahon, ganun ata talaga parang damdamin ng tao, pabago-bago, minsan dahan dahan minsan naman biglaan. Ang lamig lamig ng pakiramdaman ko ngayon. Nawalan na ng pakiramdam halos ang mga daliri ko sa kanang paa. At sa wari ko wala na rin pakiramdam ang puso ko. Makailang beses akong nasabihan kanina kung anong problema ko. Kung bakit napakatamlay ko. Kung may sakit ako. Kung pagod ako. Sa dami ng tanong nila isa lang ang isinagot ko. Lumamig kasi ang panahon. Nananamlay ang katawan ko. Parang hinihigop ng malamig na hangin ang lakas ko. Sabi pa ng isang kaibigan kanina parang ang lamig ko daw tumingin. Walang buhay. Isinisi ko sa lamig ng panahon. Sa biglang pagbabago ng temperatura, sa malamig na haplos ng hangin. Bukas isang araw nanaman. Inihanda ko na ang makapal na damit na isusuot ko sa pagpasok sa trabaho. Baka sakaling hindi ko maramdaman, baka sakaling magsilbing panlaban sa lamig, baka sakaling bumalik sa dati ang pakiramdam ko.Sana.Sana…
Past-midnight post :)
September 25, 2010Will I pray for it?
This is a one funny serious question i have in mind for almost 3 days now. You may think “Ano kayang ipagpapray nito si YEINE?” one of my very good friend said it to me yesterday “parang sa showbiz, pag major major ang career walang lovelife!” Her statement made me burst into one good laugh! Oo na! ako na ako na ang walang lovelife! I know that I sorely love someone now but that doesn’t mean na okay ako haha.
Then she said to another friend this “pasikatin mo nga ang buhay pag-ibig nyan si yeine!” So okay, they were trying to bombard my wall in fb saying these funny statements about me being single! As if hindi mababasa ng iba tsk! Until now natatawa ako, if they won’t tag me in their freaky conversation sa facebook na ginagawa nilang chatbox hindi ko pa malalaman. Oh man, they’re gonna be so dead pag nakapagonline ako ng maayos.
Ngayon, this question is bugging me!
Will i pray for it?
Will i pray for someone I could possibly share my time with? Will i pray for someone who will hold my hand every chance that he can get? Will I start to pray for someone who will be there for me and will listen to all my whines?
I guess not.
A broken heart cannot be healed over night, or after a couple of drinks with friends.
The pain will not subside after a long walk in a cold breezy road.
Sad movies and music will never make you feel better.
I am somehow getting used to it. There are days when it doesn’t even cross my mind. I am getting used to it. I am. Kung hindi ko kakayanin, anong mangyayari? Hahaha, WALA. He never asked for my heart before, what makes me think he will someday. Blah blah blah, now I am talking about him again. Ayaw ko na nga. How many times I tried to cover James Ingram song “There’s no easy way” and everytime I failed. Hahahaha! Asa naman kase ako. This entry was such a mess like the one typing it tsk. Magulo, walang tema. Iba iba ang sinasabi. Sorry naman pls? Goodnight 
“She did the best she could, but there are times the best is no damn good”
Ayan kase!
September 21, 2010
Tony Tony! :)
September 20, 2010Linda: Elaine, can you wash Tony? I tell you she’s very easy and very cooperative *forced smile*
Elaine: Alright Linda, I’ll go wash her and change her into a night dress.
Pagpasok ko ng room.
Elaine: Hi Tony!
Tony: raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! *like a real monster!*
Elaine: *shocked at isinara ang pinto*
Pumunta kay Linda.
Elaine: Linda, uhm, Tony was a bit scary. when I said hi to her she goes RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! RAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Linda: Oh dear! she’s like that, she can be a bit dangerous.
O cge A BIT ha A BIT! dangerous tapos sakin mo ibibigay? peltukan kaya kita! pero syempre hindi ko sinabi yan *smirk*
Elaine: ah, okay. I’ll try to calm her down then.
Linda: Okay love, be careful.
Elaine: I WILL BIGTIME!
Wala naman nagawa ang yeine kung hindi bumalik sa room ng Tony.
Elaine: Hi Tony, I’ll clean you and change your pad because its very wet.
Tony: WHAT!!?!!!??I KNOW ITS VERY WET! SO CHANGE IT!!!
Elaine: Okay. *so i wore my gloves etc.* Okay Tony, please hold on to the frame and try to stand still.
Tony: *in a very calm voice* Okay. thank you.
Elaine: Okay, now I will wipe your bumbum because you’ve done something.
Tony: * monsters-like* RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! THEN DO IT!!!
Elaine: Okay, don’t shout, I will be very quick.
Tony: Okay nurse thank you.
Elaine: * napalitan na ang pad* Okay Tony, I’ll take off your vest now and put your night dress on.
Tony: NOOOOOOOOOO! GO OUT! RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Elaine: *nashocked ulit parang hulk na babae si Tony grabe!* I don’t want to leave you dirty Tony. I want you to be clean when you go to bed.
Tony: *calm again* Okay nurse, thank you.
So napalitan ko nga si TONY dear. pero bago naman ako lumabas ng pinto
TONY: RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! GO OUTTTTT RAAAAAAAAAAAA!
Taking action :)
September 10, 2010Wohooooo! tapos na tapos na ang mga malulungkot na araw. Ayaw ko na. Hindi naman titigil lahat ng bagay ng dahil lang sa kanya. Okay na ako malaman na masaya sya. Mali man o tama ang mga desisyon nya, hindi ko na yun iisipin. Ngayon, sarili ko na muna. Ititiklop ko na ang mga pahina ng libro. Tapos na. Dahil tapos na, wala na rin akong isusulat patungkol sa kanya. Kahit na may gusto pa akong sabihin sa kanya, wag na lang dahil kahit naman sabihin ko pa wala naman mangyayari pa.
I am taking each day one at a time. Falling in love can be easy, falling out of love is hard. Hindi ako naniniwala dyan. Both is easy. Falling out of love is so much easier. *wink* Anyway, it is 5pm on my watch now, I did an early shift in the home today. Yes, I am now a certified working student *evil laugh*
