thats all i asked :)
November 22, 2009Being a BUM is sometimes okay hehe anyway i was “facebooking” kanina when my friend Lou-Anne tagged me on her note about christmas wish list and she asked us (all her friends that she tagged) to leave a comment on her note. Nung time na magcocomment na ako kasi sabi ko madali lang naman un, i got loads of wishes pero nung magtatype na ako wala akong maitatype like what the hey! ang dami kong naiisip na gusto ko sa christmas tapos biglang poof! nawala. So i stopped and think. i was thinking to hard that i felt my temporal is pulsating na pala. Naku sabi ko nasakit bigla ulo ko. THEN may naisip ako. remember the reason (nung una pa) kung bakit ako may blog. I promised myself not to talk about him pero kasi few weeks ago i added that boy sa facebook. read this entry?well its too late na para ierase ko pa.
but then i did’nt click the comment button. I felt a surge of strength to decide na kausapin yung tao na un. i closed my eyes when i reached his page. Do i really want to talk to him? What will happen if hindi sya sumagot? Would i feel rejected? Disappointed? Ashame? argh bahala na. whats wrong na kumustahin mo yung isa tao after 3 dreaded years. So i DID. i sent a message to that person praying na magrereply sya.
3 minutes later…
5 minutes later…
15 minutes later…
30minutes later…
1 hour later…
1 hour and 15 minutes..
1 hour and 49 minutes….
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never been happy. yung totoong happy haha. 5 minutes. Right. THATS ALL I EVER WANTED.
exs: this entry is not posted for “romantic” reason. its just that im happy that i finally could reconnect with him. nothing more nothing less. BELIEVE ME. he’s just one of the best guys i’ve ever met. He loves deeply and that solely made him one of the very few remaining guys out there who can make any ordinary girl the world’s luckiest.
STOP.PLEASE READ.
November 13, 2009I NEED TO FIND THE SWEETEST SONGS ABOUT “WAITING” “FOUND LOVE” “DESTINY” ANY SONGS THAT WOULD DESCRIBE THE WHIRLWIND ROMANCE THAT HAS HAPPENED TO MY BESTFRIEND AND HER BESTFRIEND! I AM PRACTICALLY CRAMING AND LOST RIGHT NOW BECAUSE ME AND MY OTHER BESTFRIEND HAVE ROUGHLY TWO EFFIN WEEK TO PREPARE A GIFT FOR THEM. SUGGESTIONSSSSSSS! KEEP COMING! NEED HELP ON THIS.
FIRST, WHERE CAN I RENT A PROJECTOR? PROJECTOR BA UN? GEEZ WERE PLANNING ON GIVING THEM A POWERPOINT PRESENTATION, THE ONE YOU PUT SA LAPTOP AND IT GOES TO THE WALL BASTA IM SORRY IM ACTUALLY NOT SANE TODAY HEHE.
NEXT, A SONG BY BRANDY ENTITLED LONG DISTANCE OKAY YUN DB KASI THE BESTFRIEND OF MY BESTFRIEND WHO FELL DEEPLY AND CRAZILY INLOVE WITH HER IS IN CANADA RIGHT NOW. AND HE’S COMING HOME ON THE 23RD!
HERE’S A LINE
“THIS LONG DISTANCE IS KILLING ME”
COOL SWEET AND JUST RIGHT.
GOOD JOB GRACIE
:d
yep yep gcie and me will be working closely together to make the 27th extra special right BFFg haha!
THERE. IM STUCKED WITH THAT SONG I CAN THINK OF ANY, (YEINE BREATH!)
ANY OTHER SUGGESTION FOR OUR WEDDING GIFT FOR THEM? NAISIP KO UNA ILL MAKE A SCRAPBOOK PERO I HAVE TOO LITTLE TIME 
I ACTUALLY HAVE THEIR PICTURES NA RIN PALA AND ANG DAMI DAMI. NOW IM HAVING A HARD TIME ASKING MY BESTFRIEND’S MOM FOR HER BABY PICTURE KASI MADALDAL UN HAHA BAKA MASABI SO DI NA SURPRISE.TSK. AND WHAT DRIVES ME MORE CRAZY IS HOW TO GET A BABY PICTURE OF HER BESTFRIEND!!! DANG. I DONT HAVE ANY CONNECTION IN EITHER FS OR FB NG MGA KAPATID NUNG GUY. WEEE IM SO DEAD.
SORRY SUPER WALA AKO NGAYON. I WANT TO CRY KASI WITNESS AKO SA PAIN, SACRIFICES, SA JOY NILA TOGETHER, IM PLANNING TO SHARE THEIR INSPIRING STORY SOON AFTER THE WEDDING 
HELP ME HELP ME!!!
i messed up again.
November 6, 2009
I don’t have a good reason why I did that.
It took the hell out of me. Really.
Now, I can’t undo it.
It’s going to be a “shame-on-me” thing.
Dang! I messed up again!
But what can I do? It was a rush of emotions. When I saw that face, I wanted to just talk to him. Dang.
YEINE this has to stop. You’ve created your own monster not knowing how to deal with it tssss. Now, where does it lead you? Nowhere. Waaaaa.
Makes me want to cry I’m stuck reading all his entries again, listening to his songs again, and humming the melodies again. I am practically in the middle of nowhere. Supposing what I did was okay. THEN? I would never have the nerve to even ask him if he’s well. I’m such a mindless witch. I AM TOTALLY 101% and in NO DOUBT MESSED UP!
