"love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be"
-John Tyree
(Dear John by Nicholas Sparks)
-John Tyree
(Dear John by Nicholas Sparks)
scariest day of my life.
October 1, 2009I dont know exactly kung anong oras na. Ung allergy ko ayaw akong tigilan plus the fact na hindi pa ako makatulog. Yesterday was so far the scariest day of my life, we were robbed kahapon around 2:30pm. The robbers were three guy, armed with pistol. He walked straight to me and pointed a gun on my temporal saying “walang gagalaw may mamatay” i was horrified. Alam mo yung pakiramdam na mahihimatay ka, but i need to stay alert worst comes to worst i need to take the bullet for my mother. Yes, i thought my end came yesterday. I saw mommy was already palpitating and i prayed so hard na hindi dya magfaint..na bigyan sya ni Lord ng lakas ng loob pa kahit konti. I was not ready to share this last night kasi sobrang shocked pa ako. What if nga he pulled the trigger? God, i don’t know, im just thankful were safe pero ung fear na maulit un mahirap. Like ngayon, nahihirapan ako matulog kasi when i close my eyes nakikita ko ung nangyari. I was the one who saw them first. I looked straight into the man’s eyes bago ako pinayuko. i fear for my mother’s life. i feared for mine. I wanted to shout for help pero what can i do, he was pointing a gun on me. Ngayon, hindi ako makatulog, ang hirap matulog 
Hindi ko mapakita sa kanila how scared I am. That time nung nangyari yun hindi ako makaiyak. When those heartless men commanded us to go dun sa kitchen, i can feel na im barely hanging on, but when i saw my Mom, not having the strenght to stand up, i need to hold her and push her to walk then nagalit lalo ung mga lalaki saying ang babagal namin. Napaparanoid ako sa tunog lang ng mga nagmomotor, tinititigan ko mabuti ang mga tao sa paligid ko. I can vividly remember how that man, that man pointed a gun on me. Gusto ko palaging may kausap, i wasn’t traumatized but im scared, scared that it may happen again. Lalo pag ganito,pag matutulog na ako, minsan i dont even want to close my eyes. Wala pa kaming plans on how we can avoid such scary thing to happen again, pero it makes my faith on Him more stronger, it makes me love my family and friends more, and it ultimately makes me see life in a different way. I thank God for not letting them harm us, i thank our friends who went out of their way just to ask kung ok na kami. Right now im listening to Pachelbel’s canon, it somehow calmes me. How many times ko na piniplay? I lost count. God Bless the souls of those men.
Hindi ko mapakita sa kanila how scared I am. That time nung nangyari yun hindi ako makaiyak. When those heartless men commanded us to go dun sa kitchen, i can feel na im barely hanging on, but when i saw my Mom, not having the strenght to stand up, i need to hold her and push her to walk then nagalit lalo ung mga lalaki saying ang babagal namin. Napaparanoid ako sa tunog lang ng mga nagmomotor, tinititigan ko mabuti ang mga tao sa paligid ko. I can vividly remember how that man, that man pointed a gun on me. Gusto ko palaging may kausap, i wasn’t traumatized but im scared, scared that it may happen again. Lalo pag ganito,pag matutulog na ako, minsan i dont even want to close my eyes. Wala pa kaming plans on how we can avoid such scary thing to happen again, pero it makes my faith on Him more stronger, it makes me love my family and friends more, and it ultimately makes me see life in a different way. I thank God for not letting them harm us, i thank our friends who went out of their way just to ask kung ok na kami. Right now im listening to Pachelbel’s canon, it somehow calmes me. How many times ko na piniplay? I lost count. God Bless the souls of those men. 
