crossing difficult roads.
January 23, 2009I don’t have the will to write this incident because I thought I wouldn’t make it as simple as it may seem. I think I will be a hypocrite if I would not admit that a part of me was surprised and hurt.
This incident happened three weeks ago. I was about to cross the street when I saw a very familiar car and slowly it stopped in front of me, unexpectedly RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME like as if fate was giving me a very cruel joke.
When it is traffic I find it very easy to cross any road but not that time, moving my feet became very hard, I was dumbfounded. I was undeniably speechless. That face hit me. That familiar face that I came to loved and fooled me. A cruel being that simply had the best of me. That single entity that once became my whole world.
Telling everybody that you are okay after a bad break-up isn’t very easy. “I have moved on” are words that choked me on the first few months. I tried to be strong; I gave myself ample time to recover. I let my heart cry, I let my tears flow. I was, positively hoping that everything would fall into its proper places in God’s time. I was young; I knew that love would still come my way when I least expected it, and besides I have so many dreams for my family and for myself, I knew that night, when I came over to their house to clear things with him, that there’s was no point of turning back, no reason for fighting, no chances of winning in a baseball game even if I try my hardest to run after the ball of our, or I should say my happiness only to find out that he wasn’t ready to catch it. We are defeated. Nothing could ever make our relationship work the way we wanted it.
I saw him and that someone who was on the passenger seat they were laughing. He came to look at my direction, standing few steps away from him made me sick. Looking at her makes me weak. Looking at them makes me ill. He must be very happy now and she must be the girl he’s been looking for.
I realized it was easy to say “I am okay” but when times like that it was “hard” seeing him happy with his new found love.
I don’t want this entry to sound that I was the bitter party, the sadness I felt when I saw him doesn’t mean I am still in love with him. It was the first time I saw him literally with another girl. What makes me think that she was the new girl, I’ll tell you, it isn’t very hard to tell :) and so being it the first encounter I don’t expect myself to jump of happiness and tell everybody “oh my recent ex has a new girlfriend” It was, common and clearly a very normal reaction on my part to feel that way.
Crossing the road with him and the new “her” on it would be easy next time.
Previous Comments
@ate kg, yes ate, napaisip lang ako na before i was the one who seats there, oh well surprisingly not the only one pala hehehe mwah! ate you think i am not healed pa? hmmm? i don’t love him anymore but some things that has something to do with him still makes me feel a bit sad..
Posted by yeinechan at January 23, 2009, 12:10 pmhi yeine!
crossing the road for the first time is the most difficult part. but you’re right, next time will be easier. 
have a nice weekend!
Posted by mordsith at January 23, 2009, 6:57 pmI feel for you yeine..though hindi ko pa na experience yan. Imagining it to happen to me freakin’ hurts! Just stay strong!………… “There are many fish in the sea” haha..
@mordsith thank you for visiting my place din po hehe next time it would be easier na tlga il add u in my blogroll po ha take care!
@purpleworm hehe sis! ayos lang hehehe i sear il catch a handsome clown fish next time 
haha
hay nakoooooo.. LAHAT TAYO STRANDED! sus.
Posted by bloom at January 24, 2009, 12:45 amcheer up =) i understand how awkward that moment must have been, but you sure did handle it well. take all your time to let go. the next time you’ll cross the street, who knows it might be the right person will bump into you. believe me, i’ve been in the same position. take care.
Posted by kayni at January 24, 2009, 1:17 am@bloom waaaaa d ako stranded loka hahaha mhirap lang ung ganung situation ikaw kaya anong gagwin mo?
@kayni thanks for the comment po, made me smile kasi bka next time nga noh masagasaan ako ng right guy hahaha pero sana hindi serious ang pagkakasagasa skin hehehe next time i will see them ayos na bahala na sila hehe! i know he would feel the same if he sees me na ahm may ganun din pero matagal pa un hehehe! ill add u sa links ko ha
that was so awkward talaga.. buti namn nakatawid ka? well, gnun talaga sis.. there’s something sa atin na ndi mapigilan lumukso ung puso kapag nakita ntin ung ex natin na may kasama ng iba.. but that was normal naman tlaga. sila rin im sure nafifeel un.. but it will end soon! someday ikaw naman ang mkikita nyang may kasamang iba.. hehe! mi loves you sis.. mwah!
Posted by sp00fed at January 26, 2009, 2:20 pmhi yeine! musta na! just want to add that I admire you for the way you handled the situation…with grace and class.
happy evening!
Posted by kg at January 26, 2009, 4:48 pm@sis spoofed hahaha someday pag nakita nya ako malulungkot sya hahaha dahil he lost the girl he shud have had until now…
@ate kg hahaha naman ate muntik n ako hindi makatwid hahaha! buti traffic saka buti hindi kagandhan ung girlaloo hihi kung hindi matutulala ako haha
naku wag mo ng pagsayangan ng oras yun.
wb sa akin nagbblog hop na naman hahaha!
Posted by Fey at January 29, 2009, 9:03 am@fey wahaha share ko lang noh wala n ako pkialam dun pro please nmn pakibura ung pic namin nung sa mga fs nyo grrrrr! d nmn kasama sa tropa un eh
UUu gagawin ko. bwiset siya! =))
Posted by Fey at January 31, 2009, 9:18 pm@fey sus salamat nmn ang tagal kong hinintay n burahin nyo un hahaha
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yeine, I know how you feel… “The sadness I felt when I saw him doesn’t mean I am still in love with him” can be so true.
Just hang in there…it may sound cliche, or it might not apply to everyone, but time [and prayer] does heal wounds.
Have a great weekend yeine…and don’t forget to enjoy life!
Posted by kg at January 23, 2009, 6:16 am