love this song hehe!

 IM YOURS BY JASON MRAZ

Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks, now I’m tryin to get back
before the cool done run out I’ll be givin it my best test
and nothin’s gonna stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some

But I won’t hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait
I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you’re free
look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love
listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We’re just one big family
And it’s our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved

So, i won’t hesitate no more,
no more, it cannot wait i’m sure
there’s no need to complicate our time is short
this is our fate
I’m yours


I’ve been spendin’ way too long checkin’ my tongue in the mirror
and bendin’ over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
and so I drew a new face and I laughed
I guess what I’d be sayin’ is there ain’t no better reason
to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons
it’s what we aim to do
our name is our virtue

But I won’t hesitate no more,
no more it cannot wait
I’m yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
open up your plans and damn you’re free
look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours

so please don’t, please don’t, please don’t,
there’s no need to complicate,
Cause our time is short
This, this, this is our fate,
I’m yours

>haha, love it! see told you im okey na ata one day someone will sing this song to me.hmmm im sure “it will be so hot that i melted” hehe.jason mraz made my day!

hmmm okey.

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haha moving to espanya?!ohh scaryy..hehe. im living independently?!hahaha.goodluck. right right, i can never stand riding a bus everyday hehe. im scared because when i ride a bus “d pa qo nkakasakay umaandar na, d pa qo nkakaupo umaandar n rin at d pa qo nkakababa umaandar n rn bwiset!” hahaha that’s what i always tell my friends. Cj (friend qo nun college) always joke me of making sure that i have my ID with me hehe because something might came up at least it will not be hard for my family to recognize me hahah bad noh! redundant n ang “me”

good thing i might share the apartment with bujoy hehe we might huh we might im crossing my fingers n. getting a condo unit is kinda expensive hihi. 18k a month?ate shut me off on the very second i said i want to rent a unit haha. she was like “no no lane no. rent an apartment.” hehehe so i said “eh ate its much safer and very convinient!” then she said ” apartment was also safe.and convinient” ulitan lang ba?!

october?malapit na. aral na2man. nguguluhan pa rin aq hehe NMAT is coming sa december.if il continue to med proper 40units d pa full load haha like biochem,physio, anatomy blah blah d na magsink in skin ang iniexplain ni Kuya Mich eh hehe.

un lang kakagcing qo lang eh eto agad hinarap qo.im okay na po kaya. its just last nyt na parang i was crippled by a sickness hehe i cannot even walk tsk tsk. promise im trying my hardest to be okey. im doing a job well done hehe. un ang alam qo.

tpos n promise.

haha. sakit nga nito tlga. the more i get closer the more it hurts me!haha i should look for the definition of cruel in the dictionary hehe. to my friend fey who’s always there to hear my nonsense, over dramatic, stupid and same old stories thank you.

last night, i was saddened with what i read. it seems like i read the entry three times before those words sinked into me. he’s very sad now. i can feel that.

but i must say, that all my illusions, hopes, and wishes ended up last night. i mean it this time. its my fault after all.Kuya Mich told me that if i do not have any bad intentions, there is nothing wrong with what i do. Kuya Mich, its wrong, dreadfully wrong.

and Fey, dont worry, it will not make me happy but il go for the path that leads me to being right.

it was never my intention to mingle with his life. he doest even know that i still exist. i was just this gurl from afar. i was a just a stranger. hahaha that’s why i want to stop. i NEED to STOP.

to HIM your my greatest regret. i guess this simple phrase will explain everything

im moving out of your blogsite even though that is the last thing i could get back to you. like what i’ve said, you deserved to be happy. you are still my constant prayer.

my shobe..

shobe. my first baby. she was born on Feb.24, 2005. i remembered how i talked it out with my mum because i really want to own a puppy. Everyday as in every single minute of the day i was begging for a yes! hehe being the youngest (thats what u get pag bunso! ^.^) mum finally agreed!

shobe baby gurl in chinese. she was my baby girl. she’s sweet, funny and when im tired from my duty, from the moment i step on out door and i can see her waving her tail like “happy ur home!” all the tiredness i was feeling instantly vanished.

we sleep on the same bed. she saw how i cried when im sad. she saw how i smile when im happy. she saw evrything even my soul. after she gave birth last feb 15, 2008 she gave me 5 beautiful shihtzu’s all girls.we were really fascinated because she was diagnosed of just having a constipation by her vet hehe funny she was really pregnant. 2 of the 5 shihtzu pups died. but it was still okay on my part i just accepted the fact that maybe it was really destined to happen. after shobe gave birth her health slowly deteriorate. it worsen everyday. she was even confined for a day just before we went to batangas for a 3days vacation at La Luz. i receive a text msg from our helper that shobe seems to have a hard time walking. she tends to bump on our furnitures,when they call her she does not know where the voice was coming from. i was sa worried. when we finally got home it seems to me that she has a blurry vision. so i got my penlight and see if she still have a reaction to light. sadly her pupil was fixed :( so i came to a decision to bring her back to her Vet and i was right she was blind. it was irreversible. i cried. its really sad that when you call her she doesnt know where to go she doesnt see at all.  after that she was diagnosed with distemper. i rarely sleep. i got all the medicines she needs.gentamycin,med for her appetite because she went down to 3 kilos from 6 kilos before. i can feel she was in pain everynight. after three days i can see that she was slowly getting better. she walks around the house like she used to though she bumped on the furnitures most of the time. she plays around with her kids. so i decided to come with my ate in boracay for 4 days. a part doesnt want to go but it seems she really getting ok. that was May 18. we are back home on the 22nd. that’s the time my mum told me that shobe passed away already :,( the day after we left.

it was almost two months now. her kids namely yannie, yumie en yuna were all doing okay. i poured all the love to them now. and i have accepted that there are some things in this life that no matter how much u’d take good care of it. if it was meant to slip your hands even if ur holding it tight, it surely will. no amount of love tears and wishes could bring them back..

i was wrong..

i texted this to my friend chi last nyt

me: sis do u regret letting ur ex go?uhm, i am..im stupidly regretting i let him go. i am very down right now. im anonymously giving him comments. ANONYMOUSLY this word sucks if he only knew i was the one who admires his music surely il be shut down and he would not be so happy about that

 i thought i can stop myself from visiting his site. I WAS WRONG. it takes a lot of courage to put the link on the address bar. and evrytime i see his entries.ouch. but still i know, that its the only thing that makes me happy now..reading his posts made me feel that he’s really talking to me..bout his life, experiences, pain and all that.

im giving myself time..i know there will come a point that i would stop.i just hope it will come soon.coz it really hurts.it really does